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We spent a week at the West Coast. So nice. All the sunshine anyone could ask for and the horde being as happy as can be.

I actually prefer swimming in the ocean. Even though my skin is all salty and dry after a day at the beach, nothing beats the sea.

I wish I could spend the rest of the summer there. At the edge of something and the beginning of everything.

I still have days, weeks, left of my summer holiday. Wish it would last forever.

Anyhow, tomorrow is birthday party day (Eldest bff) and that’ll be all kinds of alright.

xoxo

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We spent a week at the West Coast. So nice. All the sunshine anyone could ask for and the horde being as happy as can be.

I actually prefer swimming in the ocean. Even though my skin is all salty and dry after a day at the beach, nothing beats the sea.

I wish I could spend the rest of the summer there. At the edge of something and the beginning of everything.

I still have days, weeks, left of my summer holiday. Wish it would last forever.

Anyhow, tomorrow is birthday party day (Eldest bff) and that’ll be all kinds of alright.

xoxo

Christmas has passed. We’re in these in between days that just are, that must be, before we step into the new year.

The picture is from two weeks ago. Winter wonderland. Today it’s all rain and gloom and darkness. We’ve passed the longest night by a week, but it’ll take time before we’ll notice any change.

I’m off work until school starts again, January 9th. Which is so nice. But on the other hand it’s a bit ugh to be at home with three kids that sulk about not finding friends to play with.

I get it, sitting at home isn’t very fun, at least not when you’re forced to hang out with your siblings 24/7. And a lot of families have gone away on holiday or visiting family over Christmas and New Year.

Sometimes I think we’re the only ones who have stayed at home.

I’ve slacked off on my workout routine and I’m paying for it by being in pain and feeling meh. So I went to the gym today and practically cried my way through it. I wish I could think of a way to make that whole experience fun… like reading books is fun, or having tea is fun, or watching films is fun.

Ugh.

Guess my New Years resolution will be to not be such a lazy fat ass. Which means I need to be the total opposite of what I am.

Also. I have a couple of weeks until my next skin checkup, so all the angst associated with that is bubbling up to the surface.

Fun times!

I hate feeling like this, but I honestly don’t know how to deal with it; apart from allowing myself to feel like absolute shit until the checkup’s done. The feelings won’t go away, so maybe just embrace them?

I haven’t taken many pictures of anything lately (not even selfies, which is like super weird). And I know it’s because I feel all these horrible, crying over everything, ugly feelings.

Anyhow, we’re going to town after lunch. So maybe I’ll make an effort, or something…

xoxo

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I remember a dream I had as a teen (I was maybe 14 or 15).

I’m at the small lake in the neighbouring village, the lake we rode our bikes to during summer, the place to be if you wanted to look at cute boys. In my dream I’m alone, even though it’s the middle of the day. The sun is warming my skin and I feel a breeze playing with my hair.
Come to think of it I don’t think I’m alone at all, there are faceless people swimming and talking and laughing in my peripheral vision. Anyway, I’m sitting on the jetty, almost at the end where it’s deep enough to dive into the murky water.
A boy walks towards me, a boy I really like, although his face is washed out by the bright sunshine, so I can’t be sure it’s the boy I’m crushing on at the time. He might be some generic dream version of boys I fancy (tall, dark, big grinned, funny boys), it doesn’t really matter, does it?
In my dream he sits down next to me, I smile at him and he smiles back. Then he leans in and kisses me. It’s The Perfect Kiss (well, duh what other types of kisses are there in perfect summer type dreams).
Then I woke up and spent weeks at trying to figure out who the boy was and if this was proof of my clairvoyance and if someone actually liked me, like that…

Sadly I never experienced a perfect kiss by a perfect boy on a perfect summer’s day out on the jetty (there are other kisses at other times, but nothing like the kiss in my dream).
I wish I could have this dream again, because it was a really good one. Wouldn’t that be nice? I can’t think of another dream I’d like to relive, this one has just stuck with me through the years.

I do have an excellent memory from the same village, but I was 17 and there’s no kissing involved. There are a couple of boys in this memory and I had a crush on one of them, but this time I had left them behind at the house we were staying at (we were supposed to be camping but summer nights in Sweden can be quite cold, so we walked 4 km to spend the night on the floors of this house).
A friend of mine, we weren’t great friends, but that night we were The Best Of Friends. Do you know what I mean? We talked and talked and talked and as the sun rose we sat on a fence looking out over the morning mist dancing over the moor and everything was simply perfect.
After a while some of the boys found us and one of them put his arm around my friend. The boy I was crushing on walked beside me back to the house, we didn’t speak. And I wonder what he would have done if I had kissed him there in the rising sun…

I don’t think I’ve felt more beautiful or alive as that morning, I felt life rushing through me, filling me to the brim and making me love every second of it. It’s a good memory.

Anyhow, I’m writing a lot right now. And that makes me happy.

xoxo

I can’t believe I’m going back to work on Monday.

There’s no way I’ve had my holiday already, the sun and warmth has just arrived (I was in a bikini 90% of the day yesterday)! It’s so unfair that most of the holiday got rained upon…

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Today we’re going swimming, this’ll be the first time this summer that I’ve taken the horde to the beach. They went with their dad when I was away at camp, but since then it’s not really been beach weather.

The horde has been using our little inflatable pool though, so they’ve played around with water and been happy (which is the most important thing anyway).

Anyhow, I’ve promised them the baking of cupcakes to bring to said beach, so I better get us breakfast and then set up for baking.

xoxo

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We’ve had +30C these last few days. It’s been glorious and incredibly hot. The mornings we’ve spent outdoors playing, midday inside trying to keep cool and in the afternoons we’ve gone swimming.
I truly love summer.

Last night we went to a bbq, there were three families all in all and we had a wonderful time. The other two knew each other well, so we were sort of “the new guys”, but they are such sweet people and made us feel right at home.
I made banoffee pie (my drug of choice at the moment) and there was a big Omnomnom – all gone!

It was midnight before we all went to bed, so today is a wee bit on the quiet side. We talked about going swimming, but that’s after Pumpkin has had her nap.

Anyhow, I’ll just sit here out back and listen to the wind in the trees and love everything about the world.

xoxo

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I’m off to Rome and Assisi.
It’s with the church and we’re going to have guided tours of the city and churches.
In Assisi we’re getting to know St Francis better (founder of the Franciscans) and I’m sure it’ll all be super awesome!

Unless there’s free WiFi I’m not going online until we’re back in Sweden again on Monday night.

Take care my lovelies.

xoxo

ImageToday’s really warm and humid, I think we’ll have thunder storms before evening (or I hope we do, because this is too much). It’s actually a perfect summer’s day, but as I said yesterday: Nice weather on Midsummer is sooo weird!

I made some ice tea after breakfast, it’s chilled enough to drink now and it was just lovely! I always make buckets of ice tea during summer, it’s by far the best thirst quencher.

Right now we’re waiting for it to be 2 pm, there are Midsummer celebrations nearby that we’re thinking of joining (Pumpkin’s having her nap, so we’re waiting for here to wake too). There’ll be a May pole and dancing, coffee and cake, lottery tickets, candy and people. According to my husband it’s been like that forever (!), even the stalls are in the same place year after year… comforting, to some at least.

Anyhow, I’m taking the opportunity to write some now that everyone else is occupied by something (Pumpkin napping, twins watching a movie and husband playing Skyrim).Think I need to move scenes about, some of them don’t make sense now that I’ve read it all.

xoxo

whatever-5Here I sit, looking at graded assignments and the webpage where I’m supposed to merge all of those parts into one final grade… dartboard anyone? If I’d go by how I feel about them they’d all get an A, but I think the school might ask me questions if I’d do that (leave me aloooooone!).

Wednesday and Thursday this week the school’s having Pimp-IT days (students and teachers working together and making the school look nice).

I’m in the arts group, our students are painting Gollum, Sauron and Gimli (yes, they’re on the same painting), Gandalf, Poseidon, Athena and Medusa. You see, ground floor classrooms have names from the Greek mythology and first floor from LotR. These paintings will decorate the hallways and classrooms and my oh my do they look good!

Others are fixing furniture or cleaning out the storage in the basement, free labour, but no one’s complained so far. They know they’re helping making the school a better place to be (hopefully). The idea is that now that they’ve helped clean it up they won’t wreck things (or at least be more careful with the school’s stuff).

Right, grades…

[30 minutes later]

All done, no one got an F and I’m happy (I knew no one would fail, but still…).

It’s started raining today (FINALLY). Everything’s so dry, our lawn started turning yellow, and there was pollen everywhere! I just hope it lets up tomorrow, we’re having a BBQ at school (last day before summer and all) and it really sucks being stuck outside flipping burgers.

Oh! Someone shouted ice cream in the hallway!!! I need to go see if I can grab one too…

xoxo

sunshineOkay, so I wish I could convey to you the complete and total bliss I feel at the moment.

The white page of my notebook blinds me in the sunlight, almost like white sheets hung up to dry. Warmth seeps in to me from the wooden deck where I’m sitting, the sun’s rays warm my skin and a light summer breeze cools it again. There are blackbirds in the little forest behind our house, singing their little hearts out, filling mine with joy.

Baby birds chirping loudly when their parents fly to the nest beneath out roof tiles, beaks full of insects. It’s only quiet the short amount of time both parents are away from the nest, hunting for more food.

My children are playing on the lawn, having a picnic of grass and twigs, being pirates, building great cities in the sandbox and arguing as siblings do.

My bliss mixes with frustration as my writing is interrupted by endless questions on everything and nothing. I take a deep breath and answer as best as I can, then I sit and watch the clouds trying to find the words again.

I can see the end of troubles, I can see the light, I can believe in myself and my future again. My words were lost to me, they fled the mess and tears. Now I’m all cried out, now they can’t hurt me anymore, now they will be forgotten.

I have plans, but then I don’t, not really. They’re more like dreams and wishes and all very possible. I know I’ll succeed, there’s no doubt in that! But success to me is probably very different from success to you, or maybe we feel the same way… who cares?!

All I know is that today, sitting in the sunshine, hearing the birds singing and feeling the breeze cool my skin, I’m happier than I’ve been for so very long.

xoxo

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