giphy-9This morning I was so very very very tired (not an unusual occurrence in the mornings for me) and I seriously debated not leaving my bed all day, but then Pirate came and asked if he could watch cartoons and I had to drag my sorry self out of bed and rustle up breakfast for the horde. Husband beat me to it though and all I had to do was sit down and drink my tea (bless him).

There’s not been much in the way of work for me this week, which is awesome in a “I’m a lazy bitch” kind of way. The not so awesome part is Pumpkin having a fever and having to stay home from preschool, she’s much better today though. Tomorrow we’re celebrating her 4th birthday and we bought sweets to decorate her cake with when we went shopping earlier today (her actual birthday is November 30th).

Last year she had a Spider-Man/Harry Potter themed party, this year it’s Frozen all the way… but whatever makes her happy. It is her birthday, I can have a Harry Potter one when it’s my birthday (in April). Oh wouldn’t it be so cool! I could dress the kids up and have husband be Dumbledore, or Snape, or Neville! And I’d be Luna, because she’s my spirit animal.

I’m still stuck on The 1975, I’ve added so many of their songs to my writing playlist, which is what I play when driving (I also sing along to every song on that list, it’s the best thing, just belting out great songs in the car). Whenever I come across great music I add to this list, it’s past 4h in playtime atm. Before The 1975 I added Roxette, another favourite of mine, love their ballads.

I’m not going to make NaNoWriMo this year, unless I write 25.000 words before Monday… Hahaha! I know! What was I thinking? If I barely have time for writing as it is, how would I manage 50.000 words during November?!

Good thing though is that I am writing. Yesterday before youth group I managed a fair share of words, and I’m taking time today to write more. My brain is tuned into writing too, which means I get ideas all the time and feel joy when I do get to write.

Most of Wednesday however was spent playing Dragon Age Inquisition. That game. So good! This time around I’m a Qunari mage, female, and romancing The Iron Bull. But every time I come across Commander Cullen my heart skips a beat and I want to crawl into the game and jump him. He’s been bae since Dragin Age Origins.


I might have to start over again and play a human or elf, I cannot resist him!

Anyhow, we’re approaching lunchtime and I need to wrestle up some food for Pumpkin, husband and I. And then write. And maybe, maybe, I’ll allow myself a little Cullen Dragon Age…


2013-09-16 - 1This autumn has been the worst few months in quite some time.

I’m always down this time of year, it’s getting darker and colder and summer’s over and work begins again and… some of you might get what I’m saying.

I’ve stared projects (writing) during this time and everything’s sucked and most things aren’t even close to being done. I haven’t even kept up with this blog (duh!).

I also decided to enter NaNoWriMo this year for some freaking reason and even though I’m at 26.000 words (3 different stories, didn’t have an idea for a novel, so I’m cheating with short stories) I just feel like dropping the whole thing and crawl into my bed. Never to climb out again.

Buuut… family and work and this thing called “life” (don’t talk to me about it) has me getting up in the mornings. I do what I have to and the whole time I just want people to shut the fudge up and leave me alone.

Thank God for internet friends. They never get in your face, they mostly just get you and if you can’t deal you just chose to not interact with them. Not so easy irl, as people tend to get in your face all the time.

Don’t get me wrong, at the same time I love people. Like truly love them. But I haven’t got enough energy to keep my face smiling all the time, or listen to them, or work with them. So I flee to books and video games. These last 3 days I’ve read 6 books on Kindle and started a new character for Dragon Age Inquisition (honestly, that game is life).

After I type this I’m going to see if I can write a little on one of the short stories I have going on, I’m using this particular one for Saturday Scenes at the moment and need to get writing (I didn’t post anything this Saturday, I just… didn’t).

I had this list of things I wanted to get done this autumn, so far I’ve done none of those things and that isn’t really helping my situation. shitpissbuggerfuckall 

Also, this “Cheer up mate, it’s soon Christmas!” has me wanting to punch people in the face. Like really, that’s supposed to help me in any way? Fuck off.

Anyhow, I need to write something (anything) on my short story today, preferably before having to take Princess to the stables. And for those of you who care, The 1975 are my new musical obsession. Makes me wish I was 10 years younger, so I could lust after that cute drummer without feeling like a total cougar…



The one thing I love the most about autumn is the leaves changing colour. And then they fall, make neat (as in awesome) piles on the grass or on paths and that’s when I get to jump around in them.

Or when I drive and see leaves dancing on the road behind my car. It always puts the biggest smile on my face.

And boy do I need things to help me smile… For the past week or so I’ve suffered dizzy spells and today they reached their peak (or so I hope).

I’m taking a few sick days off work, there’s this sleepover on Friday and I really want to be better by then (fingers crossed).

Anyhow, I got the Trespasser DLC for Dragon Age Inquisition last week (I think it was last week, but it’s probably more than that) and DUDE!


I’m playing the whole game again with another character, so I can play Trespasser again… ❤❤❤
And I cannot wait for the next game in the Dragon Age universe (so excite, so freaking excite!).



Honestly. Is there anything better than books? Anything at all? (No, no there isn’t.)

If I could I’d read for most of the day and spend the rest of my time at libraries and bookstores.

Imagine walking into a place of books (heaven) and there on a shelf you see it. Maybe it’s the colour, the title, the author’s name, maybe it’s all three or none of them… but you reach out and pick the book up.

The weight of it, the feel of rippling through its pages, the smell of a new book (or if you’re in a second hand shop or a library, the smell of an old book). All those (by you) unread words. All the adventure waiting for you inside the pages of this wonderful thing.

Today I spent almost one hour in the library, reading a book I’ve already read serval times. It was the best.

I also have Kindle and read so many books on my phone and laptop, but to me there’s nothing better than getting to hold a book in my hands and experience the magic of reading.

Anyhow, we need more bookshelves at home, there’s not enough room to keep them all… and I know I’ll soon bring home new ones. I always do.




It wouldn’t be a lie to claim that autumn is here. The bright colours of summer are all muted and dark, the fields a dull gold, the trees dark green and some even a pale yellow…

There’s a musty smell in the woods, a wet and earthy tone filling my lungs with autumn air and my mind with the sads.

I feel like I’m struggling with keeping cheerful, with feeling as if there’s a point of leaving the house and interacting with others. I’ve even cut back on my time spent on social media (insane, I know!).

These emotions are going to stay for an unknown period of time. Maybe all the colours of autumn will give me strength, maybe it’ll be lighting candles in December. I don’t know.

Anyhow, life goes on. Time never stops, and all I can do is get out if bed, get out of the house and go about my business.



A friend of mine wished I’d write more fiction in Swedish, and I do have a story I want to finish. But it’s not looking as if I’ll write many words on it tonight, which sucks because I do know where it’s heading, I just don’t have the energy to get the words down…

I’ve only been back to work two days and I’m already really tired, the thought of having to get up early tomorrow and put “leave the house” clothes on, maybe even makeup, has me wanting to stomp my feet and scream: “I DON’T WANNA!” (like any mature adult person would do).

I’m not really blaming work for my lack of writing, not really, and I suppose I should write the short story instead of blogging. But maybe some of you will get this, this feeling of “meh” I have clinging on to me.

Today I finally had time for a fika (<– go clickety for explanation) with my good friend K. She always gets me in a good mood, she’s just one of those people that just GETS me. We have the similar sense of humour and I can talk to her about anything. Also, I can’t believe I’ve known her for 13 years already! Wow, time flies…

Anyhow, I ought to make an appointment to get an colour and cut for my hair, it’s beginning to bother me. The roots, the mess, the split ends… so I guess I’ll get to it in a month or two.  Also, another tattoo? I’ve given it much thought the last couple of weeks, maybe it’s time for it now. There might be change coming up and I need something to carry me through. I dunno.


I can’t believe I’m going back to work on Monday.

There’s no way I’ve had my holiday already, the sun and warmth has just arrived (I was in a bikini 90% of the day yesterday)! It’s so unfair that most of the holiday got rained upon…


Today we’re going swimming, this’ll be the first time this summer that I’ve taken the horde to the beach. They went with their dad when I was away at camp, but since then it’s not really been beach weather.

The horde has been using our little inflatable pool though, so they’ve played around with water and been happy (which is the most important thing anyway).

Anyhow, I’ve promised them the baking of cupcakes to bring to said beach, so I better get us breakfast and then set up for baking.



I’ve now had 4 weeks of summer holiday and if it hasn’t been raining it’s been cloudy and windy. I can’t say I’m very impressed by Swedish summer this year…

Apparently the warmth and sunshine is to come next week, but excuse me for not holding my breath.

Since this was hub’s last week of holiday I had planned to go do a few small  day trips, visiting friends and getting some me time.

Unfortunately Lady Luck hasn’t been on my or my friends side, my date yesterday injured her back and my date today had not slept at all, thus being too tired to go anywhere (it’s almost like a conspiracy, someone doesn’t want me to meet my friends!).

I’m really happy I have the interwebz though, at least my online friends have been easy to get a hold of (shoutout to my interwbz bffs, love you!).

But really… isn’t it time we invented a teleportation device to use to travel to friends living far off? I’d sure pay monies to use such a device.

On a happier note, I’ve finished my short story. The name changed a few times during writing but I ended up with: Bailey’s heart. It’ll be posted as a Saturday Scene and if my calculations are correct (hahahahaha, yeah I suck at maths) there should be enough story for five Saturdays. I even made a pretty little picture to go with.


That’s also something I’ve been doing during these rainy and gloomy weeks of summer holiday: played with my pixrl express app (it’s available for Android and iPhone both). It’s really a photo editing app, but the art you can create there is amazing, I feel super creative when mucking about with it.

Anyhow, I’m getting really bored with my hair. I want to do something with it, but not cut it all off, or colour it crazy, or morph it into feathers. Just something slightly different ya know…

Also I added mini marshmallows to my chocolate chip cookie recipe, and OH MY GOODNESS WAS IT TASTY! I might have created a new type of drug… you have try it next time you bake cookies.



We went to Stockholm earlier this week, just the hubs and I. Lovely lovely days and a great concert. I don’t know when the two of us had a mini holiday together…

We saw Neal Morse band (hub’s the fan, I was just tagging along) and I had a good time too. I had a drink called “Weird At My School” which was super delish, but I wish I had written down what was in it, so I could recreate it at home.

Something rather annoying at the moment is my lack of writing.
I try to make time and open up old documents and new to find any kind of inspiration, but it eludes me…

I have written some poetry though and I’m content with how they turned out. But I’d like to get going on a short story or something. I’ll keep at it, it’s bound to come some time.

I’ve found some of my favorite books as audiobooks and have spent yesterday and today listening to “Anna and the French Kiss” by Stephanie Perkins (you should totally give it a read!).
Now at 11.30pm I’ve begun listening to “Lola and the Boy Next Door” another book by her. Lovely.

Anyhow, I might roadtrip a little next week, if all plans come together as I want them to.
Also I wouldn’t mind having 10 weeks holiday instead of 5, or not have to work at all.
I really want to write…


2015-07-04 - 1Camp last week. I had prepared for almost a month and I still left home without stuff… good thing hubby had time to drive all the way to drop them off (he really is the best there is).

We had 7 enormous boxes filled with camp stuff, but I think we only used 1/3 of that. Which in some ways is great, but if I had known in advance our backs might have been spared a little…

Honestly,it wasn’t as bad as I had imagined it. The kids (youth) we’re happy to be there and I had only to nag them a little to get them working with fetching firewood, water and go get our supplies.

Worst thing about this whole trip were the gnats. They were EVERYWHERE and I think I have over 200 bites on my arms and legs. Ah well, guess I’m a tasty human…

It’s taken me a few days to get back on track, I don’t think I slept more than 4h/night (sleeping bags aren’t my cuppa tea). I’m so very happy that I’m now on my summer holiday, all in all I have 5 weeks of what ever the fudge I want.

There’s a trip to the zoo coming up, one trip to Stockholm and then to my parents. Hopefully I’ll be able to go visit an internet friend who’s on holiday here in Sweden (what’s 4h of driving to having to take a plane to New York). IMAG1520

Anyhow, my plan is to get back to writing, but today my brain’s a mush and I think I’ll go play some Mass Effect 1 instead. Because I bloody well can!



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