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We went to Stockholm earlier this week, just the hubs and I. Lovely lovely days and a great concert. I don’t know when the two of us had a mini holiday together…

We saw Neal Morse band (hub’s the fan, I was just tagging along) and I had a good time too. I had a drink called “Weird At My School” which was super delish, but I wish I had written down what was in it, so I could recreate it at home.

Something rather annoying at the moment is my lack of writing.
I try to make time and open up old documents and new to find any kind of inspiration, but it eludes me…

I have written some poetry though and I’m content with how they turned out. But I’d like to get going on a short story or something. I’ll keep at it, it’s bound to come some time.

I’ve found some of my favorite books as audiobooks and have spent yesterday and today listening to “Anna and the French Kiss” by Stephanie Perkins (you should totally give it a read!).
Now at 11.30pm I’ve begun listening to “Lola and the Boy Next Door” another book by her. Lovely.

Anyhow, I might roadtrip a little next week, if all plans come together as I want them to.
Also I wouldn’t mind having 10 weeks holiday instead of 5, or not have to work at all.
I really want to write…

xoxo

2015-07-04 - 1Camp last week. I had prepared for almost a month and I still left home without stuff… good thing hubby had time to drive all the way to drop them off (he really is the best there is).

We had 7 enormous boxes filled with camp stuff, but I think we only used 1/3 of that. Which in some ways is great, but if I had known in advance our backs might have been spared a little…

Honestly,it wasn’t as bad as I had imagined it. The kids (youth) we’re happy to be there and I had only to nag them a little to get them working with fetching firewood, water and go get our supplies.

Worst thing about this whole trip were the gnats. They were EVERYWHERE and I think I have over 200 bites on my arms and legs. Ah well, guess I’m a tasty human…

It’s taken me a few days to get back on track, I don’t think I slept more than 4h/night (sleeping bags aren’t my cuppa tea). I’m so very happy that I’m now on my summer holiday, all in all I have 5 weeks of what ever the fudge I want.

There’s a trip to the zoo coming up, one trip to Stockholm and then to my parents. Hopefully I’ll be able to go visit an internet friend who’s on holiday here in Sweden (what’s 4h of driving to having to take a plane to New York). IMAG1520

Anyhow, my plan is to get back to writing, but today my brain’s a mush and I think I’ll go play some Mass Effect 1 instead. Because I bloody well can!

xoxo

IMG_20150614_152051I had planned to post more often in June, but no…
Too much going on and no energy to spend on anything but the small things.
I had to go back to my previous post to see what I talked about then…

Hospital visit went really well, she said everything looked okay and asked me if I wanted to come back in six months or if I wanted to wait a whole year.

I opted for six months, I want to feel as if someone is keeping a close eye on things (I’ll never stop believing my skin being anything other than evil and on the verge of becoming cancerous).

The brunch at my old school was nice, I got big hugs from old students and colleagues, but it did feel like things were over before anything really began… I won’t be going back there again, these were the last students I taught.
End of an era and all that. Very strange.

I now have one more week to go before summer holiday. And that week I’m spending in Tiveden national park, in a tent, cooking over fire and living rough. There’s 12 kids in ages between 11 to 17, my colleagues and I and I’m sure we’ll have a great time. All the little details are in order and there’s nothing to do other than having fun.

Anyhow, the horde and I are going to watch Back to the Future now and eat lots and lots of sweets.

xoxo

PhotoGrid_1431894501333It’s only the beginning of June, but there’s not much left of school and our everyday routines are soon changed for summer holiday ones.

Tomorrow I’m invited to the upper secondary school I taught at for 5 years (the last class I mentored is graduating) and Friday next week the twins finish first grade.

I’ve not put much thought into he graduation brunch tomorrow, mostly because I’ve been ill with tonsillitis these last four days, but also because it seemed so far off. All of a sudden I need to find something nice to wear and figure out how to do my makeup (I’ve not even looked at a mascara brush since Friday last week!).

I have an idea though, and I’ll most likely go with it. It’s only a wee graduation after all, not the Nobel Prize Banquet.

Tuesday next week I have the day off. It’s time for a check-up at the hospital and I really don’t fancy going to work after that. Even if it’s only good news I’m usually so exhausted afterwards and no fun to be around.

I am treating myself to a sushi lunch and some me time in town (I’m hardly ever in town, so that’ll be so excite too).

Anyhow, four weeks until I go on summer holiday. I’m counting the days…

xoxo

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I made new friends.

I’m rather proud of myself this evening. I finished another short story!

It has a proper ending and I can post the final scene next Saturday. Yay! There were moments when I thought I had to just leave it hanging, post the last bit without closure and hope no one would notice or mind… It really is my biggest issue, this tying everything together and saying it’s done.

My short story “Q is for?is now finished, I can post the ending next week and then focus on finding a new scene for the week after. *happy dancing in the kitchen.*

And after all the scenes have been posted for Saturday Scenes I’ll post it in its entirety on my writer’s blog Viking Girl Scribbles for everyone to read (you can go and read the previous stories and poems I’ve already posted – NAOW!)

In other news it’s little over a week until my skin cancer check-up at the hospital, the closer I get the more anxious I become. I try not to think about it, but it’s hard when I have to put tape on my face every day…

Let’s just hope and pray that they won’t find anything worth cutting this time (or if they do, hope they find two things because having 13 surgical scars on my body feels like a bad omen. LOL).

Anyway, today has been a day full of doing nothing, tomorrow we’re having a b-day party for the twins at the bowling alley. 20 something kids and heavy things… you just KNOW that’ll be great!

xoxo

DSC_0147As some of you might know I’ve been playing Dragon Age Inquisition since December and the Jaws of Hakkon (DLC) since my birthday in April. I love the game, so much. I’ve loved Dragon Age since it came out and I’ve loved every new game they’ve released (yes, even Dragon Age 2).

When I got Jaws of Hakkon I was sooo happy, there was MOAR to play and it was made for characters higher than level 20 (when the game ends your character tends to be level 20-21, or mine were). I played the DLC with my mage, a heartbroken elf (if you play the Solas romance option you’ll kinda guess what happened here) and found it exciting to find some resistance from the creatures and things that you meet in the Frostback Basin. There were many occasion where I ran away so as to not get killed (RUN AWAY is a great option to not having to reload this game, especially since I suck at saving) and at the end of the DLC most enemies were my level and a match, but not impossible. I did fear the final boss though… I mean: FINAL BOSS. *doomsday music.*

I felt that that encounter was kinda hyped by everyone you met in the game, or maybe it was all me and how I get sucked in into these things (games, books, film – I’ve even snapped at hubs after reading a very emotional passage in a book, he had done nothing, I just had ALL THE FEELS!).

Aaaanyway, there I was, all ready for the last battle (frost resistant armour all around and fire damage etc on the weaponry) and when I finally get the nerve to fight I find that it’s TWO (2!) levels beneath me and not such a big ass fight after all…

I killed it dead on the first try and that was that. So excite. Not.

I love the story line in Jaws of Hakkon: I love the area, the characters and creatures… what I don’t like is that there are Gurgut (giant lizards) with higher level than the final boss. Or maybe not Gurgut, but there are Rift demons that are. And that kinda sucks… As it is now I don’t know if I’ll be able to replay it anytime soon. Meh.

Anyhow, this is one of the craziest weeks at work (confirmation this weekend) and I feel out of energy. Guess I’ll just have to suck it up and get through it. And hope I get the energy to write, at least a little.

xoxo

So I’ve planted both flowers and vegetables now (no I can’t remember what kind of things I put into the ground). Some of the seeds might have been a little too old, but I hope at least a few of them germinate. That’s one of my favourite things about having your own garden (and about summer), that you plant things and then get to eat them and/or look at the pretty flowers.

In other news, things haven’t quieted down at work just yet. Yes, the kid groups are done, but there are sooo many other IMG_20150306_135554things that need to be done…

  • Summer camp needs sorting out
  • Confirmation is the weekend after next
  • Youth groups continue into June
  • I need to clean my office and my desk (All The Shizzle)
  • There are notes and information to write
  • everything else I’ve totally forgotten I need to do…

Anyhow, I have to continue with dinner and then file my sad excuses for nails and paint them black (I need to understand I cannot have long nails, mine are too soft and will break. KEEP THEM SHORT!)

xoxo

DSC_0180It’s time for me to make an appointment for a checkup at the hospital.

Every six months I go back to see if any of my moles or any other part of my skin has gone cancer on me. And every freaking time I fall into a big black hole of angst, the sads and “what ifs”…

Yeah I know.

It’s great that they check up on me, it’s good that they’ll catch any shit cancer before it becomes really dangerous. But I can’t get past this fear of them wanting to cut me again! It eats me up from the inside and I don’t know what to do.

This time I’m also having issues with this thing called “the future”. I really don’t know what I want. Should I continue as I am, change jobs, work towards a ordination? I’m more or less sure of wanting to become a priest, though that’s going to take me quite a few years of studying… and I know I can’t work at the same time because I don’t do both well at the same time.

And then there’s my writing, which is such a great part of me too.

I want to write more, finish projects, feel it working for me. But as it is now, with me not doing great, I have to struggle to get even a few words down. All I do is read and listen to music (I’ve read close to 80 books in April, and the month’s not even over), I’m such a freak.

Argh! I can’t even blog about this without crying! I’ll just leave it at that.

As it is now I can’t be bothered with social media either, I’m sorry everyone who’s wondered where I’ve been, I don’t know when I’ll be back in action.

Anyhow, hubs got me “Jaws of Hakkon” (Dragon Age Inquisition DLC) for my birthday. I love that man so much! I’m also slaying dragons with my mage. If that doesn’t make me feel better, I don’t think there’s any hope for the future.

xoxo

IMG_20150320_114844Easter holiday this week. Glorious days hanging with the kids and feeling so happy…

HA!

Yeah, that’s not how it goes. Pumpkin has at least one tantrum a day (anything can get her going), Pirate keeps nagging me about playing video games (even though he just turned the Xbox off) and Princess talks nonstop about this birthday party she’s going to next weekend (I have to approve a new party dress twice a day).

I’m not saying things aren’t good, we’re having a great time too, but there are times I just want to leave the house for a few hours and stare at trees. Lovely quiet trees. 

Another lovely thing is being away from work. Things have been so hectic the weeks before Easter and it’s all starting up again next week. On the other hand most things are over by mid/the end of May… So all I need to to is to hang in there for another two months or so, then I’ll have about a month of chill before ending it all with a week of camp (in the middle of Tiveden National Park, which more or less is in the middle of nowhere) before my summer vacation.

Aaaand start up, rinse and repeat again in August.

Anyhow, I kinda feel I want (or is it need?) a project. I should start writing something, or finish something, or anything, before summer. Because that would be cool. Lemme think about that…

xoxo

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I just love when you can buy daffodils at the store. They simply scream spring (in that silent way flowers scream anything)!
I’ll keep buying new ones whenever the old ones wither, this will go on until they stop selling bunches of daffodils at the grocery store.

I’ve also bought new shoes. Shoes are the best thing ever!

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Pretty, aren’t they! My Converse were falling apart and I had thought about getting new ones, but these Dr Martin’s called to me. Buy us, buuuuy usssss! So I did. What’s a girl to do, right?

Last Saturday I posted the last part of my Swedish short story as my Saturday Scenes. I now need to get writing again… As it is now I’ve nothing to post on Saturday (there’s stuff, but I don’t know if I want to post it).

Anyway, I’m with a youth group at Laserdome tonight. It’s almost time for them to go in and shoot at each other again.

Pew pew pew pew (⬅”lasers)…

xoxo

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